What We Share, Learn, and Live With

I have always told those who studied with me or who were interested in what and how I practice, that I follow my own path. I created and cobbled together what had and still has value to me. While at one time I was happy to share that practice, I learned a very valuable lesson that changed my mind about sharing and teaching. 

I have never cared if what I do in my spiritual practice is carried on by anyone else when I am gone. I told the people I practiced with this too. It was never about that. Certainly it was lovely to participate in ritual with others, there have been wonderful times that I enjoyed and received much from. But I also remembered to only share what felt right to share. There were always things I held back, which puzzled me. I was fairly open in my teaching and helping others. I now realize there was a good reason for that strong sense that I should not share certain practices and workings.

My life has drastically changed from last year and I am struggling to accept and carry on. People I thought would always be part of my life are no longer with me by, I assume, their choice. I even live in a different place. It takes some adjusting to work through what I feel, is so much change. I didn’t expect it and so never prepared for it. But that’s life, isn’t it? Live and learn is a cliche for a good reason.

Within I have always know who and what I am, imperfect, stubborn, yet loving with much to give. And so I went about doing what good I could and messing up then repairing where I could… like we all do. And I learned my lessons well which has caused sadness, but not really any surprise. 

My Goddesses and Ancestors stand by me, teach, heal, and scold. I am finding new ways to carry on, new magicks, new interests and insights. There seems to be those guardians who have always been with me standing closer, propping me up, pushing me forward. But I am a bit wiser and will conduct myself accordingly, with more discernment. I don’t need to be anyone’s teacher or guide any longer. 

Instead, I will conduct myself accordingly, my devotional work with be done with more vigor than ever, my Reiki practice with continue with a still open heart, and I will appreciate what I have had and have, continuing to experience the mysteries and magick that my life holds.

And so it is. Blessings dark and light!

Art by Meraylah